I struggle some days wondering whether or not I should get in touch with you. I wonder what you are doing. How you are. If you're doing okay. I wonder how you would react to where I am in my life right now. Would you be happy for me? Sad? Disappointed?
I miss everything I had then. My life. My friends. You. I've missed so much these past months. So much is going on. Birthdays. Pregnancies. Children's milestones. I miss things about the life I had when I was with you but I'm also happy with where I am right now.
I have new friends, a new life and I have someone who loves me just as much as I love him if not that little bit more hehe. I'm grateful for the experiences that I have had and am still going through but I'm grateful that at the end of the day I have always had that 1 person who has always been there for me and I'm grateful to her for that.
As much as I miss my friends and wish things were different with them they won't be and I don't think we will ever get back to that point in our relationship. For now I'll carry with me the memories of the things we did and the moments we shared together and remember the great times we had when things were all "perfect"