Wednesday, 15 January 2014
I have mixed emotions about going back to church as the ward that I will attend will be a ward in which J and I were in when we first married. It's also in the same stake. I know that this doesn't make a difference BUT it makes it that little harder to go. I have the Rodings though if I do decide to go back.
Another thing that happened was tonight I came across This Blog post and it made me all emotional and sad and realise that everything in that post was so true. I tried millions of times to repent but I think at the time I just wasn't ready. I was doing it for J and not for myself. I don't know if I did or do have a testimony but right now all I know is perhaps its time I start to think about going back to church even if just for sacrament. Just these past few weeks it's made me really miss the church. I still believe everything the church teaches I just need the courage and strength to be able to go back.