Sometimes it happens to the best of us. We think we have it all figured it out and then out of nowhere our insecurities hit us like a ton of bricks.
One of my biggest insecurities is feeling like I'm not wanted or needed. Or feeling like I'm too much work for people. It's like my mind goes on this tangent and I struggle at times to come back from it and then before I know it I've played out in my mind a scenario that hasn't even happened. It's hard and it's something that at times I struggle with. I guess there is a part of me that uses it as a coping mechanism. A way to "push" people away so that I don't end up hurt. A way for me to find some reason or excuse as to why I don't deserve something good in my life.
I know it sounds like I'm having some sort of episode but I'm really not, sometimes my own insecurities get the better of me and that makes people want to take a step back. To be honest, I didn't think it would happen and it's been a long time that my insecurities have got the best of me. I'm always the girl who is up for giving anything a go. Try this. Do that. Take a chance. I'm probably over thinking it all and that's sometimes what happens. It doesn't happen often but when it does I guess it goes to the extreme.
I guess it's something for me to work on. To remember that even though we have our insecurities that majority of people don't tend to see them. My only hope is that I'll be able to let my insecurities go because I think this one is different.